I think I’ve made a terrible decision

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Author

Alex Mathers
March 12, 2026

Writing made-up science fiction stories can feel silly.

I worry it was a bad move.

Especially having run a business focused on self-help and REAL THINGS over the last decade+.

There are bills to pay, and fiction writing is not directly addressing that right now.

As I write, I watch my income fall.

There is resistance whenever I sit down to continue my story about Paul heading to lapland in a post-collapse Finland.

I knew it would be tough, but now it's real, and the feeling doesn't fade.

It can also feel silly to write made-up things because it feels inconsequential and not important enough and all the 742 other bloody excuses the mind comes up with.

The mind has a point, but the mind also doesn't know what it's talking about half the time.

You will ALWAYS find a thousand BAD reasons for doing things. But, apply your creative hat, and you will also find a thousand GREAT reasons for doing things - especially those things that keep nagging at you.

  • Dream things.

  • Passion things.

  • I'm oddly drawn to... things.

These are the things you must do, and you need to stop making excuses.

There are two ways I got better at doing the stuff that MATTERS, even when it feels a bit uncomfortable:

  1. I told myself to stop being a little weener sausage and freaking quit worrying, and do the damn thing. (This helps, surprisingly well)

  2. I rewired my worst-offending thought patterns so I genuinely cared less about what other people thought about my life choices. It took a few hours, but this made me 10x more creative.

My course - Let Go of the S#it that Weakens You - shows you exactly how to do the second one.

You are guided through a series of proven exercises that ask you about how you think about certain things, and question those thoughts to break you free from them.

If you're done with the social pressure that makes you resist doing the things you know you must do, this is absolutely for you.

And I'm not just saying that because I created the course.

It's time.

Alejandro 'in Bulgaria on a mission to buy a farm and animal sanctuary' Mathers