I just made the search harder to make it easier

I've been looking for a farm property in rural Bulgaria for a week or so now.

It's really happening, and my left eye is twitching.

I've been looking for a spot with a few acres that feels properly remote. Somewhere I can have animals, grow fruit, and live a more self-sufficient life.

The problem is that most houses here, even the ones falling apart (which I'd happily live in as a start), don't come with enough land. And almost none of them sit outside of villages.

So I made a decision yesterday that added to the discomfort, but tripled my excitement.

I'm going to stop looking for houses entirely.

I'm going to buy raw land and build something myself, gradually over time. I'll start with something like a prefab cabin or a converted container and figure it out from there.

This is scarier than buying an existing property, and what will my mum think.

But it also makes the search a little more straightforward, giving me more options.

It still feels weird. There's planning I don't fully understand yet, in a language I don't speak, in a country I've lived in for about seven minutes.

My brain immediately started listing reasons this was a terrible idea. (It was quite creative about it, actually.)

I caught myself today. I can do this more quickly these days when I sense my scared, reactive self acting up.

It's time to basically stop being a dweeb.

The most successful people I've watched over the years tend to sit with that discomfort and almost welcome it, because they know it means they're going somewhere most people won't. And that's precisely where the good stuff is.

Stagnating in your own thoughts and waiting for the fear to pass is tempting. But it's a trap, because the fear doesn't pass until you actually do things.

This is the moment I need to step up.

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Stay tuned for more Bulgaria updates.

Alex