I have no idea what I'm doing

I finally published another fiction story two days ago.

I've been writing fiction on and off for several years.

I started sharing them, horror and sci-fi mainly, on my 'Story Cabin' Substack.

I had a phase of writing weekly tiny stories there for a few months.

Then I stopped for a year, until recently.

And I plan to make this a thing now.

I'm leaning in harder.

I want to make fiction writing my main thing.

But.

I still don't really know what the hell I'm doing.

I don't know how to stay motivated when worrying about spending time on 'more important things.'

I don't know how to write the best stories.

I don't know how to market myself as a fiction writer in this modern age.

But my soul has been nagging me about writing fiction for over a decade. Literally.

I see flashes of worlds I'm yet to create, to this day.

The voice is getting louder.

That's the voice telling me I need to do this now, even if my ego wants to protect me by focusing on 'more serious stuff.'

It's been loud enough recently to force me to write creatively again.

And, even so, when I sit down to write today, I can feel that resistance.

I hear that other voice that squawks: 'You might be wasting your time.'

But I learned through direct and often painful experience that discomfort is part of the price of admission.

I know this intimately from years of blogging into nothingness.

I’m still a writer. I’m just thinking inside a new context.

But most people never start because they can't tolerate that weird, prickly unease.

They wait until they're 'ready,' which is another way of saying: never.

Uncertainty is not a problem to solve.

It's a state to accept.

I will never know what will happen next. Not in my next story, and not in the wider plan.

I could fail.

And that's ok.

When you can sit with not knowing, without trying to think your way out of it, something else will be there to guide you.

And you start by writing the first sentence.

This isn't just about fiction. It's about any path that scares you but calls to you anyway.

Before I internalised what I share in my Untethered Mind course, I'd be paralysed by my fear of uncertainty. Nothing would happen across the board.

The course gives you a fundamental restructuring of how you relate to your thinking so that uncertainty doesn't block you as much.

It's not about handing you a packet of 'mindset tactics.' It shows you how to stop taking anxious thoughts so seriously.

When you can more frequently lean into not knowing, your dreams are within reach.

Learn more here.

Alex